[yesthisismyday]

Life is a wonderful journey

My face swelled like a balloon
My eyes was shut
my heart was tied up with gigantic rocks
blocks all ways in and out
I walked with a heavy mind
I drowned in stressful thoughts
1985 is my birthyear
but already I felt life was way too much
Did I have too much and did I need anything
I also felt weary sins
I was a dead person walking
Yes, that was me
And my uncle is having cancer
they give him chemical stuff
to treat his going-wrong body
every week
this is the fact many told me
99% of those who are in the same condition like him
would die within 3 months
he is the 1% that some called miracle
he breathes the smell of pain
shuts his eyes and rests
3 days in a week
and the 4 days left
he wakes up
drinks his milk
he does not feel nothing
But he drinks because he knows he needs it
that's his life in more than a year
But wait, I forgot to tell you one more thing
after finishing his milk
he makes phone calls
sometimes his assistants drive him to his company
he tells people do not worry
and please continue to work
he inspires every single soul
that knows his story
I told him why do you still working
he did not say much
But mom told me still he's happy
and he acts just like normal
cause he doesn't want people who love him to worry
How about me
my birthyear is 1985
and I do not work for more than 2 years
I just sat here and there
feeling so tired
I managed to depress many people
that comes near me
and made my family worry way too much
I was who many called genius
No
Let's make this a new beginning
I vow from now on
I'll eat 1 orange everyday
more veggies more fruits
I'll stop drinking too much coffee
I'll go exercise and find myself a job
If I'm too bad and no one wants to hire me
I'll work for free or I'll open my own company
I'll never write another sad story to depress people
never, never
and that's how a healthy person shall live
Before truly becoming a legend, first I must become a healthy person
Before deeply loving anybody, first I must learn to love me
Before madly working in the job of giving, first I must know and enjoy what I have and need
This is a prescription I wrote for myself
thanks for doing me such a great favor
the sorrow guy life in me is finished
I want to be a missing piece of people who need me
born a we guy
the guy I never wanted to become
I used to be a selfish freak

Dr. Beo