[zoneoni]

I think that the logical implications of what you have described pretty much prereqs that you believe in god, what's more it requires you to acknowledge a vengeful god or even at least one that uses morse code to deliver eternal punishment, maybe one that does that just some of the time anyway. However, there would have to be some sort of divine logic that would explain him trying to punish you for being single. This leads me to believe that you broke up with her and for a stupid reason, something childish or insignificant otherwise. Because if you broke up with them for something valid, god would have no reason to punish you, or atleast the logical thread leads into. God would also probably not punish you unless you brought something good for her to the table, maybe a stable and healthy sanity, or emotional support that she desperately needed. Or maybe your (assumedly) good morals could have changed her darker side, who knows but if you were able to help her and you choose not to out of w/e reason then I think your guilt is more responsible for your visions of gorging faceless couples. I believe in god but I don't think he would punish you either way. Maybe give you a parking ticket but not make it so close to home.