[Keaton421]

What's going on in you is more than can be solved in a thread or even two.

My secret? Worked hard, found values that made me a better person, joined the Army, and realized just how stupid and vacuous the majority of people are. That's a recipe for self-esteem.

Even if you've got nothing to be proud of, you can walk and talk confidently. People will begin to wonder what you've got that makes you hold your head high. Be confident, but not cocky. And never accept disrespect from anyone - but learn to take criticism, it'll improve you.

More than likely there are good parts about yourself that you don't notice or are afraid to recognize and talk about. The fact that there are deeper things on your mind than pocky and Twilight proves, at least to me, that you're a more worthwhile person than 80% of this forum.

EDIT: I rarely, if ever, say this. But if you find out that living in Japan is your dream, then I wish you good luck