[Nyororin]

Only run from problems which cannot be solved or would not change with any effort you make.

Can you say that about your problems? I doubt it - and this is coming from someone who did do the whole drop and run thing at 17.

Self esteem was never my issue (I`m flat out arrogant, as I`ve been told far too many times) - so I can`t give you a huge amount of advice there... But self esteem is something you make yourself. The day you realize that you are above a great proportion of the population things will look a bit brighter.

I usually never bother myself with reading the vapid threads in the relationship section, but took a look at yours just to see what SHAD0W was talking about... And it doesn`t sound like you have inhibited emotions at all. You just aren`t good at expressing them. If you`ve had a professional diagnosis, that`s one thing, but if you honestly had inhibited emotions things would be a bit different.

Your world is very small at this point, and I think that is the sole problem. I won`t say silly things like "toughen up" because that doesn`t help in the short term, nor is it always the best path for a person. Just realize that the world is a very very large place, and that there is a very wide variety of people and lifestyles. Make some effort in some direction, toward something. That`s all it takes. Set some kind of goal and work toward it. Something that matters to you more than the immediate surroundings. In the end, the more you suffer in the short term, the greater the joy you`ll feel when you do obtain some level of happiness.

Oh, and try to meet up with some nerdy girls. They exist, and will likely appreciate you much more for who you already are - not what you`ve changed to in order to get their favor.