[KikiBunny23]

I have a friend that stopped cutting recently and she said she got a rush from cutting that made her focus on the pain so she didn't focus on her problems...but like drug use, once that high is gone, you crave it again and again.
Though for my other friend, she just started cutting [we're all trying to get her to stop] she says its seeing the blood. Knowing that she's alive and real.

As for my rare times I do do it [twice in three years] it's just feeling the pain