[ZedKnightly]

after writing the title of this reply i kind of felt somewhat like... err.. nevermind.

thanks for voicing out your opinion on this matter. as i read the replies i missed since yesterday,
i became confused again. but i guess thats to be expected. Shouting in the boards for help would obviously net me
a whole lot of contradicting opinions, but thats exactly what i want. i want to weigh in on different perspectives, cause believe me or not, ive lost mine. i know what is right from wrong, but i keep remembering the quote my little sister said to me.
and it goes like
"Sometimes its better to do what u feel is right, than to do what you know is right"
and although if u say criminals can say this quote as well, im kind of thinking it a lot. and as a result i dont know what exactly i should do , how i should react to this. im no newbie in a relationship. ive had a girlfriend in college, and we were going strong for 4 years straight. So im not exactly a newbie in this game.

But no matter how experience i say i am, it stills boils down to this feelings.
guess im not as battle tested as i thought i was.

As of this moment im still thinking of wether i will ask her out or not. im not thinking of confessing to her, but my asking her out will give that away anyways.. i think.

i thought i was pretty confident yesterday before i slept, but after reading posts from some of u guys, its kind of knocking senses back at me.

But u see, i dont want to regret. ive had my fair share of regrets, and i dont like it. it haunts u, FOREVER. that much i know. and i might regret not having the courage to try and at least be close to her.. so i might really try and do this.

Actually if she is serious about her relationship i can accept that. truth is for starters i just want to break the barrier and be close to her, but asking her out pretty much shatters that, and im lost.

i want to get close to her. be her friend. and like all you guys said, if shes with a jerk, ill take her.
.. thanks everyone. for reading this many posts. hehe. and my long pointless babbling.