[DSX]

Well, there was this one girl I talked to for over two months. Since the first day I met her, we've been able to say almost anything to each other. I could trust her when I vented my problems (which were rare times, actually), and I knew she trusted me when she did the same.

It seemed like everything she told me only made me more attracted to her. We have so much in common, that I told her. I felt for her in a way I never felt about a girl before. In the past I've been having problems telling between a huge crush and love, and this was a major case of that.

I couldn't tell what it was, but I just wanted to be with her. One day I asked her out, and she says she's already taken.

I died a little inside after that. That rejection would make my seventh so far. This happened a month or two ago, yet I still feel the envious pain. With how much I've suffered like that over these three-to-four (school) years of trying, I pretty much want to hunt Cupid down, tear his wings off, and stab him to death with his own arrows for screwing me over so much.

I almost gave up on trying to find a girl, and as much as I want to, I never can.

I'm still looking now, just not as hard. I'm gonna try to work on keeping my mental guard up so I don't go all emo every time this happens.