thanks for your comments firstly. i do love my fiancee but i know deep down i will make her unhappy in the future i feel i cannot miss up a chance to do something like this.. also my fiancees father was a cats whisker away from moving to canada before he got with his wife and even though he loves his kids and family when he thinks about what could have been it depresses him . my fiancee wants a nice quiet life with a couple of kids in a small house she has no desires or ambitions of her own.. to be honest she was the first person i fell in love with. when i think what could have been b4 i met her.. moving to tokyo to study japanese i get desperatly sad. i do love her and i know leaving her would be cruel but she has told me before if any of us are not happy we shouldnt go any further. i would also never leave her in the lurch i would finacially support her and let her have everything i only need a few coins and the drive and determination to go on.
i believe in life
you get the people who DO and the people who DON'T
i want a life which wasnt expected of me i want so much more and i know i won't get that from my fiancee.. she wouldnt even consider moving to london for me as its too far from her parents (160 miles )
im also not a child anymore im 23 and life is moving to fast i don't wanna be 30 with this still being a pipe dream i want to act as soon as possible. it would be aweful of me to marry my fiancee and then fall out of love with her a few months after due to my needs
im sure i come across as a crazy pychopath
but this is my dream and i really REALLY want to do something about it
i would rather do it and fail than not do it and not know at all
anyway i would still lvoe to hear stories of people who have successfully migrated to japan
