[SweetSuicide]

Seeing his face brings the pain back
Hearing his name brings the fears back
Trying to forget him, but always
Remembering, never forgetting him
The memories of him kill me and I
Cannot help but cry and die every time
That day was the worst day ever
Hurting me so badly, then leaving me
7 months down the drain in a single second
The scars tell the story of the pain
Blood shot eyes are proof of the tears
Tossing and turning in my sleep
Waking up to sight of his face
Is my reoccurring nightmare
Wishing I knew what I know now
Doing it all over, but differently
But yet, if I do that, I'd be changing me
Trying not to go forward so there is no past
Trying to run backwards so there is no future
If all things heal in time, then I guess
Time stopped for me 3 years ago because
The pain never leaves me or goes away
Breaking me down until I die inside
So today I say goodbye to you and all
The painful memories, too, and to him, for
Hurting me so badly making it so I
could never love anyone the same
Now wish I got the help I needed
Earlier or else maybe this would be different
But you got away and now I'm paying...

This is deffinalty one the ones that was the hardest to write... If you can't get the idea of this poem, PM and I'll let you know....