[chopsh0p]

i said i wasnt going to read over what i wrote and it sounds like i was being much too vague but it seems you picked up on what i was trying to say at least if i could turn a hobbie into a fulltime job that made me happy i would and still could but i dont know what that might be yet still looking for something that makes me want to try hard since you have proved that doing that is possible my main post was more just random feelings without any real basis on my life as it is now i may not be doing much now but what i really want is a clean slate before i get my life moving in the right derection thats where i am now and i need to wake up and just start doing something.

its better just to disregard anything that doesnt make sense from my first post rather than questioning me about since it was like scribbleing down notes