my pain multiplies in time
showing who i really am inside
people telling me i make up lies
my only friend lost in the past
because i moved
are friendship didn't really last
i miss the old me
i miss who i use to be
i miss feeling happy
not having to feel like telling everybody
my pain and misery
it use to belong to just me
and when my only friend came
i would share my pain with her
like she did with hers
i truely hate this new life
i wish i could go back in time
to be the girl my family once knew
missing my dead father i never really knew
him being dead i couldn't care less
but something made me miss him
was it the yelling
the fighting and screaming
or the fact that he was just gone
and we never got to be together
as daughter and father
i miss everything
i miss Medford Oregon
I miss the book store
i miss my Sister
my aunt
my grandma
my great grandma
grumpy old grandpa
and i miss the color of home!