09-04-2009, 02:17 AM
I feel for you, Nyororin, but I'm very glad that you came to better days. My situation is similar, of the sorts. My dad was never a dad, and as it is, he'll never get the chance to be because he's dead. My mom is basically a functional deadbeat, she goes to work, and her job is even somewhat good paying, yet she spends her money on the wrong things, i.e., big screen tv (which is still unpaid for), going to clubs, buying clothes she'll wear once or not at all and other random items that appeal to her. She constantly gambles, loses the money and whines that she won't do it again, which I know isn't true. She's a slob in my eyes. She'd rather waste money on alcohol and cigarettes and things for her self than providing basic necessities for me. I constantly live my life with no hot running water, little to no food at home, and often dirt clothes. The place that I live is scum. I've even been homeless for a few years, and I never recovered from the isolation I felt because of it. I suffer from depression and an inferiority complex, which is the least of it. But I have dreams of moving to Japan, to a better place where I can get away from my past and meet new people. I want to remake myself and get there as soon as possible, and you are my inspiration to stay constant and make that happen.
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