I didn't expect so many people to reply so quick. Uhm, anyways, thanks for all of your advice but in the end it doesn't really matter because I'm not getting it anyway. Turns out that I can't, for better words. But still, I will take a shot at those websites that you guys suggested and will continue to self-teach myself I guess (with some help from audio tapes and whatnot). Thanks again. And, by the by, I KNOW that life isn't all nice. I've had my ups and downs (more downs than anything) so pointing that out wasn't really called for.
