Hello Guys,
i lived in Indonesia, im just an "another" kids wanted to live at Japan without any skills.. Currently im doing 4Year Degree Majoring Management. For almost half on my life i was dreaming to live at Japan.
When it began , yes its all about anime and the whole thing, etc2...
but lately i realize that will need a live that i can lived for my whole life without regreting that i've been living all out for it. Its not that i dont want to serve my country.. its just that im not into it. Long time ago i learn simple japanese, but it was tripped by financial problems. So i really dont have any talent to offer to Japanese government. event i cant speak japanese at all. i Once gave up my dream, my live objective..
but when my college nearly done, which is right now. i am so depressed.. and i was likely having a nightmare every night that i cant go to Japan and live my live without passion. i know maybe taking a holiday to change our live situation is better. but i am chased by my family financial problem to work, to gain wages, to earn every cent to help my family financial problem after doing college. i am at a single parent family. which its only my mom, and financial is a serious problem at my family.. and my mom not supporting me to delay any kind of "movement" that will waste and not earning any money. i starting to learn nihongo again, but i know i wont make it until i graduate. i am so frustated by the pressure right now.
Today i was wake up from my nightmare , i was really freaked and have a quick mind about finding a forum that maybe that will help me, or at least support me..
and i am somewhat calmed down after read through DarkAngelAthena story.
im not yet reading this whole thread story. so maybe ill continue do read this forum for this few days.
sorry for my bad english..
ill really appreciate any suggestion from my senpai at this forum..
i know maybe i too spoiled for my senpais.. but i want to trully lived my live that i wanted to..
