that's just...i don't even know what to make out of it - your question.
sounds like you really are afraid of, well, most of the things.
so what if you like it? and are "addicted" to ?
i am watching ~30 shows (anime, tv shows) a week at least.
i think i caught up to bleach from 0 to ~217 episode in 3 weeks. 70 episodes a week. same with naruto. so what? i still went to school, met my friends.
when it came to english exams i was best in my school (among top in whole country) thou i didn't attend 60% of english classes - i had gained great amount out of simply watching mythbusters, big bang theory, HIMYM etc...
so. i think you should know these all important character building words - grow some balls and do what you want.
