[Natoshin]

Gah...highschool anywho... What prevents me from getting a gf would be well..how people think of me=weird or my looks... Even though many people i know and older say You'll get one eventually just gotta wait or such and thats just kinda annoying hearing it over and over.I had 3 girlfriends so far in my life...1 was we'll when i was too young >>...2nd was when i lived somewhere else but moved and she didnt like long distance.3rd i just got right out cheated on ..she went after my best friend just cause he can make her laugh more then i can and such and yes i think the 3rd one wasnt just right for me and i still stand by that reason.When i got into highscool i commited to changing which i did during my summer after my ex killed my heart and i had to sulk all alone..anyhow that brought a change in me.I take the action and no longer wait for the girls talk to me,i actually consider acting stupid or doing stupid stuff to make ppl laugh or before i didnt cause i consider it dumb to act stupid or do something to make myself look stupid, I also now Im the one starting the conversation and always make sure the girl im talking with is never bored,laughing and happy and always bring a conversation up if i think shes bored,and lastly,It made my shyness go away so i can easily talk to girls now and not be shy or be all akward when around them but, because of this change im not considered shy,quiet,emo or w/e but now weird and even though thats better then the old it keeps girls wanting to go above friendzone which is really saddening for me T^T...and cause of that the very girl I like just think im just a friend that hurted but i kept trying to somehow get her to change her mind and eventually she liked me and i asked her out,date,be my gf in that order and still i get deeply turned down and said she cant have a bf cause of her family then one week later goes out with a guy from my same class..Bah my luck is bad... o.o guess i'll just stay dedicated in trying to learn japan,eventually when im of age and have the money goto a language school in japan and then a university where im a exchange student..Then eventually find a life-partner and settledown later on in Japan...Thats about it I can sum up for what prevents me from getting a gf...If yall feel like aiding a young person in this category I dont mind one bit ^_^..