[princessmarisa]

I hate to be a voice of doom but I just get one very strong vibe throughout this.


Why do you think living in Japan will be any better/will be the solution to your life of misery?

I would hate for your to spend all your effort and life working towards getting to Japan, get there then realise it isn't all you presumed and life is tough anywhere.

It is good to have a goal and many of the things on the path there will be useful in other ways, so in general aiming for a degree and such is good, but consider other options of making a success of yourself in your own country too.

Rich, successful Japan-lovers can go to Japan twice a year or more on holiday and have all the fun sides of the country they want