[princessmarisa]

I have had a year of rejection.

At the start of the year I got rejected from JET
I carried on and still got a first in my degree even though I didn't know what I'd be doing with it anymore as I had banked on JET. It knocked my confidence and I reassessed everything and chose not to apply for any other ALT schemes this year.
I also decided to step up and start studying useful Japanese instead of anime and music slang for the JLPT to improve my future prospects for teaching in Japan if I ever decided to re-apply. I took the N5 and am confident I passed and now preparing myself to take N4 next year.

The teaching placement in a local school as part of my school were unreliable and just stopped being contactable
I used what I had learnt in what little time I had to do a good dissertation on the failed placement and still got a fantastic result for it and learnt a lot, this has allowed me to have an interview for a PGCE teaching qualification next year if I choose to go that route


After Graduating, I moved into a houseshare where I got financially ripped off and treat like a slave
I stood up to the bully and turned everything around in my favour eventually, getting everything legal into my name and kicking her out.

I got sick and lost one job, then ended up losing another due to personality clashes and their financial situation
I got back on the job hunting market within a week, and although have not been successful yet I have started a portfolio and learnt useful skills to help me get a job, as well as having the time to really cram for my JLPT.

I got a once a week volunteer job with a Japanese mother and toddlers group, then got diagnosed with a reoccurring infection in my mouth/throat. It is kept under control with various antibiotics on and off, but it basically means it would be very dangerous and irresponsible to spend time around very young children, babies and pregnant mothers.

I have had nothing you could call a real love life in over 2years now, just people I like who seem to lose interest after 1-2 dates, or ex's who appear to play me, or psychopaths who obsessively stalk me when I have no interest in them
I have pretty much given up on trying to date, but have a vague hope one day I might meet someone special in some random way and have a love filled relationship again.

I keep getting called to multi stage interviews where I always make it to the final stage then just lose out at the last hurdle to another candidate, I have made entire websites for clients to impress them as requested, spent money I don't have travelling to interviews in the middle of nowhere, apply for dozens of graduate and minimum-wage-general jobs each week.
I try keep my spirits up that next time I will be the number one, and this time I will stay at the job for a long time and be a success.



Things are bad for me at the moment, at my parents place to save money, whilst still having to fork out for bills/rent I am tied into on my other house.
If I stay there I can't really afford to eat let alone go out.

I bought plane tickets and hotel reservations to Japan before I realised my finances would get so bad, so I have money saved for that holiday I cannot touch now as it is all accounted for.
This one lovely holiday planned for the summer is all that keeps me positive somedays.


Deal with rejection by trying to brush off the failure, do something useful and keep trying. Find one positive thing to focus on and remind yourself of it when you are down.