[macki06]

yeah i guess its always difficult when you know youre not interested in the same things most people your age are into.
growing up, i thought, i wish i were more normal, haha. so i wouldnt have problems fitting in.. it can be quite awkward when you and the people around you know you are different. and sometimes, for some reason their sense of normality if theres ever a word gets threatened and pick on you (me).lol

about sex. haha. i thought the hassle of courting a girl and faking interest and everything else in between, were just too much work,.. and its true, its unfair to the girl, if she gets into the relationship under false pretenses,,,so i had a prostitute for my first time. hahaha.

it wasnt really that much fun. at the time i was thinking so, this is it then. hahaha lol,
and honestly after that, i didnt feel any different. lol.