[dogsbody70]

i am not immature and been around too long to think that i get easily upset


it is not like me to be possessive at all,

this is a person of whom i am extremely fond--too fond really,

she has plenty of friends and i have my special friends, have no problem what other friends they have, she tried to become friendly with my neighbour with whom i am friendly terms for years.


i have been obsessed with this japanese friend for the past three years and

always had to hide my feelings, we have helped her a great deal==because we wished to do so.


i sound like a silly child squabbling i know. it is wrong to be over possessive and anyone who knows me would not believe i should care for someone in a possessive way.
i try not to but wondered if anyone had good advice, it should be--- let her go-- but she lives too near. at my age it is absurd to have feelings that dominate and cause much heartache.

in my heart i know i should stop seeing her at all.

no matter what age, one's emotions can sometimes take over, its ridiculous at my age but loving someone can happen to all ages