[Lallyzippo]

I see...Yes perhaps it was a bit selfish of me not to consider that he was hesitant about leaving his mother behind. On the other hand, his extended relatives live in Kyushu, so he was more open to that when I suggested it.

And it does explain some of his job-hunting attitude that I didn't quite understand. However, he hasn't gotten any offers yet. He almost finished one company's interview process, but didn't quite make it...

The fact that he's older (26 now) I think definitely makes it harder for him.

We speak mixed Japanese-English when we communicate with each other.

Thing is, we're in a serious relationship, that we both hope is leading to permanent commitment (marriage). However, the major issues that are bothering us are mostly location, and (for me) religion. Since I wasn't as knowledgeable as I should have been, I've also made some faux pas in manners which concerns him, I think. I would say that I'm attached to some people back home, and that it was a little hard to adjust to the new dynamic of friendships here when I first arrived. But since then, I feel I've improved somewhat...

I'm not fluent, but I can hold a conversation with someone.

If I'm being honest, some aspects of life here, while I can respect on an academic level, I would have a hard time living with on a daily basis.

I keep going back and forth on this...One minute I can't possibly leave him and that I can just deal with things I don't like, and another I'm thinking living in Japan permanently isn't for me.