[musashi]

Ok, so, those of you who know about how my day was/is going, I was like walking throught the hallways of my school, and it was weird, everything was the same but it looked so different, and suddenly, I came to like a realization that maybe, though I am feeling crappy and my eyes have been shut the large majority of the day, for the first time, this is the best i've ever felt in my life and that for once, my eyes were truely open....I was actually really really happy, and then, just as soon as it came, it went away. So, i figured i'd write a poem about it.......

For The First Time

For the first time,
I'm able to walk through my existance
And see the people in it.
See into the vast nothingness of their
Busy eyes, full of all there is.
For the first time, I no longer see
Through the crowd that covers me in
A blanket of nobody, but instead, I
See above them all, watching their busy
Heads bob up and down as they move
Forward to their destinations. For the first time,
I see the world through the shade of
What it really is, not being blinded by
Perfect imperfectness. Seeing the true
Invaluability of all life as I walk
Blindly to my destination, staring into
The eyes of everyone who passes.
For the first time, I can truely say
That I have seen and understood
My existtance. Seen and understood
That the pain has to be dealt with
When it comes. that sadness has
To be released through tears and
Happiness is to fill the world through
Continuous laughter. We can not
Stop it. We should not stop it. For
This could be the true meaning of
Life. Once you know, once you've seen,
You understand purpose. You understand
The meaning. You understand existance,
For the first time.