because I am sad, my life is a blurr of sorrow, thats why

NOOOO! I refuse to believe that...

most of the things that happen to me are sad and horrid. I have been raped and my chest slit by a drunk dude, my mum is a drug attict and I dont even know my real father, my class treats me terribly and I have close to no friends (beside here), I have no clue to the where abouts of my mum, and I am seperated from the rest of my family. wanna know anything else? I still got more from my stash of 14 years hand-on experience of a horrid life.

"A quiet tear roles down her black cheek"
Hurts the one who listens
Existence in a world
Of hurt
Why?
Who cares
Why
Noone answers
Noone listens
"A quiet tear..."

I can't top that. Out of confusion I let myself get raped. out of confusion I let myself get jumped. out of confusion I drugged myself and got arrested, no chages thank god. Out of confusion my father is as lost as I am. Out of confusion I have become a sludge hammer...

wtf? hmm...is that to make me fell better bout my life?

HELL NOOOO!!! its just to tell the truth...Your environment...my choice...they are like dirt and clean...space and matter...time and dreams...life and death...outside lookin' in...

aer you sure you didnt hit your head rrrreeeeaaalllyyy hard today??

I can't read.......
too sad....Yuri...
What can I do for you?

just be a friend, thats all I would ever ask of you nelson.